The Word Draw: A Prophetic Connection to Trauma

In a truly mind-bending moment, I drew the word **TRAUMA** after spending the last 20 minutes talking about it, proving once again the strange and powerful way this show's format works. I reflected on my decision to delete a recent live stream where I "trashed religion" and "went after political parties" out of a fear of being misunderstood. This self-correction was part of a larger lesson in emotional maturity and an ongoing journey of speaking from the heart without being a source of division.

This led directly into the heart of the matter: we all go through trauma. I believe the whole world has been given PTSD over the last five years. The gaslighting, the lies, and the deception from our leaders, our media, and even our own communities have left us collectively traumatized. We are fighting each other without seeing the puppeteers pulling the strings behind the scenes.

My Journey with Empathy and the Blessing in the Breaking

I shared candidly about my journey with empathy. For most of my life, I never fully felt the consequences of my actions because I had dissociative identity disorder (DID), which allowed me to disassociate from painful emotions. I could hurt someone, but I couldn't sit with the pain I caused. This made it impossible to truly learn from my mistakes.

In God's infinite wisdom, I developed a tremor that forced me to stop disassociating. I was then forced to sit in the heartbreak, pain, and loneliness for the first time in my life. I hated it, but now I'm grateful for it. It taught me the **joy in suffering**, allowing me to look at every bad thing not as a punishment, but as a lesson. It was this process that helped me to love again, not just a person, but my life, my family, and my friends.

The most transformative part of this journey was becoming public about my past. I lost many people who were afraid to be associated with me, but through interviewing hundreds of women who had been victimized by men like my former self, I began to truly understand the impact of my actions. This process was like getting to face my accuser, and it was a crucial part of my rehabilitation, helping me become a more empathetic person and a better father.

Truth: The Only Way to Heal from Trauma

The only way to heal from the trauma of this world is to tell the truth. Truth will set you free, but as the Gospel of Thomas says, it will also "break you in half." This breaking is not to destroy you, but to remake you. It reminds me of the Japanese art of **Kintsugi**, where a broken pot is put back together with gold lacquer, making it stronger and more beautiful than it was before.

Truth, paired with empathy, has been the key to healing my past and building a better future. It's allowed me to heal relationships and to be honest about my own immaturities, which creates a space for true growth. My mission is to use media to amplify truth through our stories, not our opinions. By sharing our testimonies and what we can prove to be true, we can collectively heal from the trauma of this world.